My Best Shot

Sometimes is not good enough.
Oh you try and try and then try some more but just trying doesn't always mean doing.
Or getting.
Today, I went on yet another job interview.
For my real job I mean, the one I went and spent like ten thousand dollars to do.
Not the one I'm doing now.
I didn't spend any money to do what I'm doing now.
Which sort of means I'm doing that for free.
I do get paid though, even if it's not the big bucks.
The job I trained for, that's kinda big bucks, but I'm not doing that.
Yet.
Anyways, I updated the ole resume, begged all the teachers I worked with this year for letters of recommendation, you know, to sort of stack the deck, then I sat and waited.
I don't like much waiting for job interviews, it's sort of like asking for money; I feel like I'm begging.
Which what usually happens.
I end up begging I mean.
Sort of a: please, please, please hire me cause I need this freakin job cause my freakin certification test scores are going to like expire soon and I don't wanna have to go back and take them tests again and I promise you're not making a mistake cause I just can't live on my current pay no more.
Or something like that.
Okay, not really.
I mean it/I wasn't that bad.
I don't think.
I tried not to grovel and claw at the desk and I even wore my non-Goodwill shirt with matching dress socks.
Actually I thought it went pretty well, until the end that is when all I got was a handshake and a we'll call you.
So now comes the torturous part, the waiting for the phone call or if you've been following along at home, the dreaded rejection letter.
Wait.
Why am I getting so down?
I've got more important things to do!
Wait.
Getting a job is pretty darn important!
Still, I'm working everyday doing something related to Something Wonderful/Hele On Kailua and today was no different.
We've begun to start putting together a budget and lemme tell you, stuff is adding up pretty fast.
Believe it or not, the most expensive thing so far is the portable toilets!
Toilets!
Portable ones!
I never thought having to go was so expensive!
Still, we've got a long way to go and everyday we get closer to our goal.
I guess the main thing is to stay focused and not let something trivial like gainful employment get in the way.
If you know what I mean.
The main thing is to know that I gave it my best shot and that's all I can do.
Or  I can sit back, eat potato chips, and peruse my latest copy of Paved magazine:

Which is what I think I'll do.